Tonight I had a dinner date with two Buzz Lightyears and a hungry baby. Dinner with the three kids can be quite the task and tonight was no exception.
There was never enough ketchup on the plates, water did not stay in the cups, and I could not get the apple cinnamon oatmeal baby food into Colton's mouth fast enough. Meanwhile, Colton wanted Conner's fork, water, and food. Conner was depressed that he could not wear his Buzz Lightyear costume to the Emmys despite my constant reminder that he can wear anything he wants. And Caleb was pouring his water from cup to cup.
Regardless of the chaos, I am hanging on tight to those moments. The creativity, love, and complete sensation of joy. I am learning that motherhood joy does not always exist - but when you find it, you grab onto it and hold it tight.
Motherhood can be a challenge. There are days that push beyond limits. Moments that serve as an opportunity to cook up some love. Love that will be enjoyed when the timer finally dings and the cookies emerge from the oven. Cookies that are tender mercies from God spelling I-Love-You with a perfect unconditional love that motivates, refines, and heals.
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